this headache is about
did whatever
HAPPENED
in therapy
CAUSE
it
the percentage of things he said
that I don't believe
was high
BUT
the stuff he was saying to me
I could understand his
INTENT
BUT
his WORDS didn't make any sense
I don't know
I have this SENSE that
WHENEVER
my brain has to PROCESS whether I know it or not
it just SHUTS me DOWN
I was TELLING him
ABOUT being
COMPLETELY INSIDE of myself
& SLEEPING
KNOWING that I was WORKING through STUFF
in my DREAMS
I MEAN
all the stuff I've been telling you
BUT
I was KINDA centering
AROUND the CIM moment
LIKE
if that is my KINDA breakthrough moment
I was saying that I wasn't sure how much of it was
ME working on myself MENTALLY
ONE WAY or ANOTHER
OR
HOW much of it was due to the ANTI-anxiety
PROTOCOL
SUPER B complex methylated, liposomal theanine with gaba and magnesium, oh, plus the adaptogen surfer coffee-- now with maca
he's LIKE
YOU really WORK
MOST people just sit BACK
& THEN he wasn't making any sense
BUT
I FEEL like
the BOX thing
was a DIFFERENT part of the conversation
I STOPPED him
ASKED for
CLARIFICATION on the BOX
he said things
it made no sense
NOT enough for me to remember anything
NOTHING caught
WEIRD, huh
ANYWAY
I walked over to the tamashi
I walked in
& the busser asks me if I want tea
which is what I get
& he remembers
EVEN though
I haven't
BEEN
there
for
MONTHS and months
MAYBE like a year
MAYBE
I ENJOY that
FEELING
being regular enough to be recognized
I got the same thing
& as I'm picking up single peanuts
with chopsticks
I think
you're pretty good with those things
& I'm LIKE
I've been DOING it for FIFTY f*CKing years
& I'm LIKE
HAVE you
YES
since I was eight years old
BILL
taught you
YOU
weren't gonna EAT chinese food with a FORK
& HE wanted you to LIKE chinese food
he took you to
I can't remember the name-- maybe it will come
on the edge of
right over where george r. brown is
there seemed to be
more or less
RAW sewage SMELL like the sewer was broken
& the inside was
HE SAID
decorated like a Mexican bus station
WHICH I
didn't REALLY understand
BUT seemed plausible
I took the VIBE to be
a small space
arranged
SOMEWHAT
haphazardly
with
sturdy functional items
NOT chosen for BEAUTY
I don't recall there BEING any possible
MEXICAN elements
BUT
the tables MAY have had BEER logos
they were THAT TYPE of table
I think I liked
MU GU guy pan
FIRST
