LIKE
when my therapist mentions
HOW fabulously wealthy
he is
it BOTHERS me
WHY
I'm NOT SURE
there's a BUNCH of STUFF
BUT I'm not sure if anything I might say
would be the thing, ya KNOW
SOMETIMES it's
talk-y talk-y
it's RUDE
I've explained to him
my FEAR
he's describing, sometimes, his leverage
as head of the estate
OVER his family
I find THAT
a little triggering
AND
WHILE all this is HAPPENING
I'm LIKE
SHUT UP m*therf*cker
don't CHARGE me
to rub my face
in your
PRIVILEGE
BUT
I don't SAY that
WHY
I MEAN
I have TOLD him
I have ISSUES around this
I have told him I haven't really worked
THOSE issues OUT
I'm pretty sure
I made clear I wasn't particularly interested in
WORKING through them now
SO
I'd have to maybe BE confrontational
& THAT
MAYBE FEELS like
ACT LIKE I WANT you to
SO
MAYBE
you see how I'm wondering if
it's SOME kind of
WEIRD transference THING
I MEAN
I think I like him enough
& FEEL like
it's just not worth
SAYING SOMETHING
BUT
THAT MIGHT be a PATTERN in me
I MIGHT need to re-evaluate
BUT
SURELY
being confrontational is not a virtue
it FEELS like
getting caught up in something irrelevant
EXCEPT
if it bothers you
it MEANS something
I don't think it's jealousy
BUT
I could be wrong
