Monday, March 24, 2025

I don't know what direction to go

in fact
Donna and I have been talking for a while 
& I think we've identified each other 
as having similarities 

we both have red hair
we're both
KINDA
not
very
girlie 

she does have a kid though
& three grandkids

we've been talking politics 
the pandemic LOCKDOWN affected us both
pretty hard

in fact
I guess we first started talking
when she had her show at archway 
that was all stuff she did
in LOCKDOWN 

I bought a couple works on paper 
& she had more she said
I could look at

she's about fifteen years older than me, I think 

she's had some aging stuff 
that KINDA 
took her by surprise 
I think 

with her bones

I was talking to her
about all the things I'm trying 
to mitigate damage 
I expect to have

she asked me
what makeup I had worn last time 
I looked pretty tired today
BUT 
I'd looked great last time

I found this
SO FUNNY 
I can remember a time
when that would have offended me 

I'm LIKE 
I'm wearing basically the same thing today
BUT 
I was better rested
& wearing concealer 

I told her all the stuff 
the concealer isn't really concealer 
it's tarte Amazonian clay 16hr full coverage 

I use that if I need coverage anywhere
the rest is light reflective pigment 
which I love
I think it looks more natural 

it might not
I might look like a f*CKing light bulb 
it doesn't really matter 
I project whatever 
I FEEL like 
I do it for ME 

NOBODY really 
LOOKS at you
they just
FEEL 
your 
VIBE

I mean they MIGHT see you
BUT 
it's really not that common

at least it seems that way to me