Monday, March 24, 2025

ALSO 
what I mean about my mom 
not wanting to contemplate the ramifications 
I tend to judge
I don't WANT 
to JUDGE

I tend to think
everyone has this SPARK of the DIVINE 
I WANT that to be TRUE 
KINDA
believe it 
UNTIL I 
come face to face
with the
I'm LOOKING and I CAN'T SEE it

& THEN 
I don't LIKE 
where I GO with THAT 

THAT'S what I MEAN 

NOT 
that I can't acknowledge that 
she can't really love me
PROBABLY 

I WANTED to UNDERSTAND 
BUT 
I don't FEEL like 
ANY of it is

HER
really 

I have a hard time explaining it