fixin to listen to TK
I still LOVE my dad
btw
but he had this
really nasty edge to him
that red head hit
I had already
I thought made up with him
I had stayed at his apartment
watching the boys
while he was in the hospital
because
he didn't want to
have to
OWE deborah anything
whatever that means
& that was years before
because jason was in middle school
oh and also
when I was in highschool
he was in the hospital
& I walked from PVA to the medical center
to see him
I THINK we had
some sort of closure
when I saw him in 2007-2008 over the New Year
BUT it is a great sadness for me
& it FEELS like
ICK
the sort of girlfriend vibe of my relationship
with my father
& there's other stuff
that I didn't think
BUT then
just not SURE
& THAT doesn't feel good either
