I hope you had
a beautiful day
I was with my mom
TODAY
&
I feel compelled to explain
I still love my dad
he did me wrong
BUT
I don't think he has the capacity
to do any different
I think my leaving
BROKE him somehow
& rather than doing
the SMART thing
knowing what he knew about my mom
which would have been
to assure me that
I could come back
he just took it as
TOTAL rejection
plus
my mom winning
BUT
even while he was doing all that stuff
he would call me
and be like
DON'T GIVE UP on me
he was complicated
he made bad choices
he hurt me really badly
I hurt him too
BUT I was trying to SAVE myself
after years of begging him
to help me
& he couldn't
I didn't want to hurt him
& if I knew them
what I know now
I'm not SURE I would have done the SAME
I THINK
I might have done
SOMETHING
crazier
he and deborah split up
not that long after
I guess I was in highschool then
MAN
I don't want to THINK about
ANY of THIS
