HOW much I believe in ASTROLOGY
SOMETIMES
I think I do*
*just not seriously enough to pay a lot of attention to it
& sometimes
I THINK
it's kinda a gentle energy modality
ya know
BUT
somehow
I FELT that Pluto Transit
I felt completely torn down, AND I thought rebuilt
BUT now
I seem to be doing it AGAIN
& THAT
I MEAN
makes a certain amount of sense
I HAVE a lot of AQUARIUS
AND
there's a WAY this is a metaphor, RIGHT
to help you understand
in a more non-threatening way
NOT that I'm SUDDENLY
veering into
SUPERSTITION
the THING is
it FEELS like
to ME
& THIS is the PART
where I'm just kind of TRUSTING myself
I FEEL like
the CAPRICORN Transit
BUILT the BRICK HOUSE
NOW
I HAVE the BASE*
*the word foundation would have made a better metaphor
to build the HOUSE I WANT
I FEEL like I KINDA
don't know how to do that
& I have been
HAPPILY experimenting
BUT I think
I have hit a BLIND SPOT
& I keep SAYING how
I might be full of sh*t
what that REALLY means
is I might not be RIGHT
I MIGHT be
PUMPing myself UP
I might be
lying to myself and NOT know it
my mom is NEVER wrong
in her MIND
if you start to think
that the way
you think
is the ONLY way
RIGHT way
you blind yourself
I don't think
I'm doing this
I think this arose from
the trigger
or/and
the subsequent PERFORMANCE
which if you remember
was SOMETHING
I felt STRONGLY
that I had to do
THIS whole THING
STARTED with
my SUBCONSCIOUS mind
TELLING me
basically
I wasn't gonna finish THIS LEVEL
if I didn't FINALLY do
the WAY OUTSIDE the box
EXERCISE
AND
I THOUGHT
the tornado thing-y gave me
a RELATABLE narrative
I felt pretty SURE
I could do BETTER
it's pretty much
the format
I would use, like at work
my entire life
SUCCESSFULLY
SO
MAYBE
I was worried that I would still not be good
MAYBE but
I again didn't demand
that I do BETTER
DIFFERENT MISTAKES
was the thing I was chanting
in my HEAD
SO
I really don't think
it was just blind panic
MAYBE
I NEEDED to FOCUS on
SOMETHING
I FEEL like
I'm getting somewhere
& the or I might be full of sh*t
ALSO
is designed to keep me from getting my hopes up
I think I'm up against SOMETHING
I'm all on YouTube
trying to hit
the right
direction to look
ALSO
I have been working on
multiple AREAS
of my life
at once
SO there's a WAY
in which EVERYTHING is KINDA
in progress
ALREADY
PLEASE understand
that I AM okay
I'm trying to be better than that
❤️💌👾🫚
