HOW much of what I'm SAYING
makes actual sense
to you
MAYBE you DON'T
have sh*t like THIS
& MAYBE
you don't have sh*t AT ALL
MAYBE you are LIKE
TOTALLY sane
BUT
even if you aren't, which statistically
would be more likely
I am NOT mad at you
I JUST NOW thought
to say THIS
MAYBE you think I'm MAD at you
RIGHT now
I think it must be VERY stressful
to be watching me
KINDA melt down
BUT
YOU are the MOST important
PERSON to ME
RIGHT NOW
YOU are my ROCK
& if you can do THAT
I REALLY
HATE
to put it in these TERMS
BUT
I THINK
it would help me to FEEL
SOMETHING CORE
that I need to FEEL
BUT
didn't get
from the people
who RAZED me
I ONLY ever wanted you
to STOP the stuff
because I THOUGHT
it would be confusing
BUT
it just needs
NOT to be DESIGNED
to evoke a response from me
WHICH is such a fine line
you see
because when you do something to make someone happy
THAT is ALSO
designed to get a response
but in THAT case it's GOOD
SO
it's complicated
& I'm NOT trying to make it MORE complicated
I JUST NEEDED a break
from what I WANTED to HEAR
if that makes sense
I WANT YOU
PLEASE don't go
