how I'm doing
I feel like
I'm making progress with my health
I mean
I'm kinda plateaued weight wise
I just need
MORE exercise
BUT
I'm still KINDA floating
about the blood pressure
& the walking
BUT
ALSO
it was LIKE
making a new neural link
BUT I WISH
I could make you feel
the CHANGES
I MEAN my feet
are fine works of hydraulic wonder
that fascia stuff in my torso*
*which was so ongoingly painful
has resolved
I can TWIST
there is something WEIRD going on
with my BACK
there's this big section
it is giving me
CALLUS vibes
no idea
SOME embodied trauma madame
& a soupcon of back bacon
my hair
is growing in
a lot of shorter new growth
I was not healthy
I'm NOT like fit NOW
BUT I feel like
I have made a lot of progress
BUT ALSO
like I got a BUNCH of stuff processing
LIKE I'm figurin it ALL out
is that TRUE or sort of true
OR would the
BELIEF
be enough of a VICTORY
WHY look for delusions
I don't believe I've been prone to optimism
FANTASY yes
but even THAT isn't
all THAT optimistic generally
MAYBE
maybe I'm full of sh*t
I NEVER like to rule THAT out
there WILL be times
it's just sometimes
gonna be me
