BODY STUFF
I've noticed something
there are several
YouTubers
who have lost a significant amount of weight
& I'm LIKE
I liked the way they looked BETTER before
and then
I was watching
PEACEMAKER
and there's an actress
DANIELLE BROOKS
(she was in orange is the new black & I may not have seen her in anything else, but I think she is a really good actress)
I was watching her
& I was like
SHE looks good
I like her mass
BETTER
than
the "normal-sized" girl
THEN
I was LIKE
what size is SHE -- compared with ME
I looked her up
she's the same height as me
which surprised me
she wears (supposedly) the same dress size
her proportions are different
BUT
she's
ESSENTIALLY
similar BODY
SO
MAYBE
I should be
OKAY
with
ME
SO
I'm trying a NEW tack
MAYBE
worry about HEALTH
not SIZE
MAYBE
I WANT to TAKE UP a certain amount of
SPACE -- maybe SIZE is FINE
SPACE -- maybe SIZE is FINE
I'm not sure if that's
WORKING
I guess
we'll
SEE
I NEED to get on board
with BODY stuff
I need to
BE in my BODY -- not my HEAD
MORE
I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart
goodnight
