he cancelled therapy
& on the one hand
WHATEVER
he's human, he's having problems, I'm worried about him
BUT
on the
OTHER
HAND
WHY
am I always explaining away
OTHER people's BEHAVIOR
BUT
NOT allowing myself to be
ANGRY
that what I HAD a RIGHT to EXPECT
(although in my mind that becomes complicated by the fact that I don't believe you have the right to EXPECT MUCH)
I don't know HOW to be
ANGRY
PROPERLY
NOT
psychotic RAGE like my mom
NOT
a FOREVER slow burn like my father
SOMETHING
ELSE
& MAYBE
THAT is a KEY to solving the grievance problem
OR
MAYBE
it just helps me to
NOT FEEL LIKE
I need to run away from things
because I can't DEAL with them without
BECOMING a MONSTER
LIKE
if I JUST
why does it seem like
FIGHT CLUB
SUDDENLY
applies to
everything
TODAY is ANGER DAY
