my mom had texted me
around noon
asking me how I was feeling
I texted her back
AFTER
I woke up
& then later it occurred to me to ask her how she was doing
& she was trying to make it from her car to her apartment & she would call me when she got in
SO
she called me
& it was more than thirty minutes later
SO
apparently she had felt bad
& she went to her doctor
& her blood work
wasn't good
WAIT
they never have the blood work right away
OH
apparently they can
if you look bad enough
SO
it's MUCH worse
than last week
BUT
it was too late to do the other test
so they gave her some referral to go get some imaging test out on the Katy freeway
& MAYBE she was supposed to go today
BUT
she was TOO TIRED to do anything else
BUT
she JUST got home
did you go eat, I ASK
YES, she says
WHAT did you eat, I ASK
I went and had Mexican food, she says
can you describe HOW you FEEL, I ASK
what do you MEAN, she says
I had hoped for like a description of what was going on, but I just press ahead
on a scale from one to ten
with ten being great
& one being
DEATH'S DOOR
MINUS TEN, she says
now com'mon
I felt bad, I slept all day
I woke up, I still feel tired
I was like, MAYBE I could choke down some broth
WHAT did you EAT at the mexican restaurant
I had nacho things with no salt, she says
OK, so not THAT bad, I say
NO, not really minus ten bad, I guess, she says
did you take you oxygen levels when you came in
NOW
LAST TIME
she felt like she wasn't getting enough attention
she kept the oxygen check thing-y
on her finger
ALL DAY
(allegedly)
since she won't be honest
or give me any real information
because it's part of the weird way she wants to
control/manipulate/whatever/there is no way to
KNOW ANYTHING
just respond to the drama
she doesn't SOUND out of breath
or panicked at all
she's TIRED
BUT
she felt good enough to eat NACHOS
her doctor would have admitted her to the hospital if she was in a bad way
NO HESITATION
not sent her
driving across town to find an imaging place
she had never been to before
it took her
more than thirty minutes
to walk from her car
to her apartment
BUT
she didn't feel the need to check her oxygen
the doctor thinks she may be getting an
INFECTION
(fluid in lungs, NOT in the chest X-ray from last week, so I'm not sure how we know about the fluid -- ten times as much fluid as the X-ray from last week)
OK
I'll walk over tomorrow
& we'll figure out what to do, I say
I just want you to KNOW
you are my PRECIOUS daughter
& I love you, she says
yeah, I love you too, I say
