when I said I was having an identity crisis
it MIGHT have seemed like
a BODY thing
I have body issues I've talked about
& I'm not saying
I don't have
STUFF
I am feeling
LESS freaked out about my body TODAY
because it's a little cooler
& I'm wearing
kind of a bright navy blue wool outfit
& I feel like I look
good in blue
I THOUGHT I could answer questions
from a thing I found
talking about
my relationship with my BODY
BUT
IDK
I don't think
I have had a good relationship with my body
EITHER aesthetically
or FUNCTIONALLY
BUT
it HAS largely
DELIVERED
what has been asked of it
AND
there is a WAY
that what you look like
what I look like
isn't really
BASED
in reality
I don't think
what I look like is really that important
BUT
SOMETIMES
I DO
I'm not even sure what I'm trying to look like
I think my clothes are mostly about comfort
& being able to have free range of motion
& temperature regulation
has become VERY
important
BUT
none of it seems
COMPLETELY
tied to the
PHYSICAL
LOOK
of ME
