thanksgiving is on my dad's birthday this year

I was just in the kitchen

& I got a box

I didn't put the raisins away 

I think I thought I might want 

CURRY TUNA*

for dinner 

I LIKE 

raisins 

THEN 

I remembered deborah's lunches

did she REALLY pack the

SAME LUNCH

every day

I don't remember anything else 

FISH STICKS 

with mayonnaise 

on ROMAN MEAL bread

& a box 

of RAISINS

I understand 

NOW 

that the mayo

was some kind of stand-in for tarter sauce

but having NEVER SEEN tarter sauce

I ONLY understood 

I didn't like it

could I 

PRETTY PLEASE 

have ketchup 

LIKE when

we eat fish sticks at home

BUT 

it never changed 

could I

PRETTY PLEASE 

just have

DRY BREAD 

without condiment 

BUT 

it never changed 

sometimes I would wipe it off

sometimes I just 

wouldn't 

eat it

I got 

SO 

sick of RAISINS 

sometimes they'd give me lunch money

that was BETTER even if I didn't like what they were serving specifically 

I went to second, third, and fourth grade

at the SAME school

& there was

a MONDRIAN print

THAT print

that MADE my LUNCH 

I LOVED it

I'm not sure EXACTLY which one it was

*when I like twelve-ish my school friends & I walked down to this little something called the brasserie or something like that & I got a tuna sandwich and it was curried tuna salad with raisins, and I started making it for myself that way and have never stopped