I FEEL like
I was childish
with my mother
we went to lunch
& I didn't attempt to entertain her
I just sat there
& said what's new
BASICALLY
I didn't WANT to
SO I didn't
it's nice lunch
I really enjoy that restaurant
ALSO
she pulled up
& I asked her if she wanted me to drive
& she's all LIKE
do YOU WANT to drive
& I just shut THAT down
it is not ABOUT
what I want
BUT
I mean I don't really care
she's a terrible driver
it's less stressful
really
AND
I don't know how coherent
THAT was
I didn't feel NORMAL for ANY of it
it was strange
META maybe
LIKE
I'm trying to translate
or something
we had some talk
IDK--
I MAY have processed
SOME emotions
OR
MAYBE
I shut something down
I was THINKING about
BAD stuff
I mean not the WORST stuff
BUT
I was LIKE
YEAH what else ya got
WELL not really
MORE LIKE
YEAH, I KNOW
BUT
I'm still or am again today
SOBBY
COMMERCIALS and such
