I read a suicide note
from a guy who didn't get kidnapped
he hid
he watched
or listened to
his friends get killed
or dragged away
BUT
there was worse
I read THAT before Julia butterfly hill
I started to tear up
about SOMETHING*
*I can't now remember what
in the Uber on the way to work
BUT
strangely
I felt LIKE
MAYBE I'm figuring myself out
I'm going to tell
the therapist that I don't want to take
medication
to just mellow me out
even if that MIGHT be cool
BECAUSE
I'm trying to rebuild my FRAMEWORK
and I don't want to do THAT
in a different mind state
I want to figure it out
NOT
half ass figure it out on meds
& THEN
JUST have to re-re-learn
how to do it
AGAIN
BESIDES
I FEEL
LESS freaked out
I'm NOT feeling super talk-y
BUT
I feel extra LUCKY
goodnight sweetheart 🫶
I LOVE you VERY much
💋👾🫚
