I think I feel you
BUT
MAYBE
I'm just high
& I had an idea about my mom --
--- tell me a HAPPY story ---
I can't honestly believe
that I haven't tried
this before
I suspect it was just so unuseful
that I scrubbed the record
BUT
MAYBE I NEVER thought to ask that before
I ALSO heard Gary numan
in cars
& I thought a lot
about
HOW to describe the memories
I have CODED in that song
AND
I REALIZED
that I haven't THOUGHT
ABOUT that stuff in so long that
I can't really put myself
BACK in THAT
mindset
It's NOT happy
I don't really want to describe
the garbage sticking to my back
on the linoleum floor
was this HOT
I know I had a lot of complicated feelings
I know NOW
HOW bad it was
BUT
I think I KNEW at the time, too
& I can't remember
SO
I'm KINDA
triggered
BUT
also kinda ok with not remembering
I am not SURE that I'm SANE
BUT
I don't feel like I'm the SAME person
over time
I feel like I've shifted enough
GRADUALLY
that maybe I'm a completely different person
I feel like I've said that before
BUT
we'll see how coherently
I said it now
