I texted him
I have a migraine
would it be okay if I
hang on
I can't remember exactly what I said
would it be okay for me not to
come to therapy today
I wasn't sure
if stating it as a question
was the right way to go
BUT
it felt too AGGRESSIVE
to say
I have a migraine
I'm SKIPPING therapy today
AND
it felt too LIKE
CALLING IN to WORK
to say
I have a migraine
I'm not going to be ABLE to MAKE it
to therapy today
if I were him
I would think
she's AVOIDING conflicts
about the meds
OR
MAYBE I pushed a little too hard
made her
feel threatened
SO
the version I USED
I guess is my way of saying
I'll come in
if you think it's REALLY important
BUT
otherwise I'm not
& I'm SOMEHOW
MAYBE also
making it
FOR HIM to tell me to stay home
which probably is NOT
RIGHT
it FEELS to me now
LIKE when my district manager
once asked me
HOW would you
LIKE to be
HELD ACCOUNTABLE
to MAKE me SAY
that he should
WRITE me up
SO
MAYBE I'm just sh*tty
I think it might not have been a migraine
just a bad headache
BUT
HEADACHE
doesn't MEAN anything
the TRUTH is
I woke up
feeling
PRETTY good
EMOTIONALLY
my head hurts
my brain-stem feels swollen
I think my lymph is
OFF
because my chest and neck
is somewhat tender
BUT
I thought therapy
would make me feel worse
not better
