I really HOPE I didn't
CONFUSE & distress YOU
because I FEEL like I MIGHT
have had a
BREAKTHROUGH
that memory
REFRAMED
ME
for ME, somehow
the HORSE thing
was REALLY frightening
AS it was HAPPENING
BUT
it didn't really cause me trauma
because I could understand
the situation
THAT might NOT
MAKE sense
it's HARD to KNOW, sometimes
BUT
that's just the stuff I have any real WAY
to EXPLAIN
ANYWAY
THINKING about all THAT
made me remember
I don't THINK
I've ever TOLD you about this
OK
SO
I KNOW I've mentioned that at PVA they were
ALWAYS using the
SEND you BACK to your ZONED school
as THREAT
BUT
the ART department
apparently had picked our class
KNOWING that with the
NEW building
we'd be a ZOO exhibit
they picked KIDS they thought would LOOK
MORE NORMAL
& WE
had disappointed them by being
LESS CREATIVE
I MEAN
if you BELIEVE any of THAT, really
BUT
they DID SAY it to us
& they kept
THREATENING
that they weren't gonna GIVE us
ART department
CERTIFICATION
we'd get HISD diplomas
that SOMEHOW
wouldn't
COUNT
EXCEPT for
THREE people who WERE GOOD ENOUGH
THEY got a group show
& EVERYONE else
was in the
OTHER senior show
& everyone was FREAKING OUT
I was like
you are all gonna be accepted to your colleges
BEFORE
they issue this WEIRD diploma THREAT
EVEN if they CAN DO it
I'm pretty sure
COLLEGE
isn't gonna check your diploma
WHAT do THEY CARE
I THINK it's just supposed to SCARE us
& it IS SUPER bogus
BUT
it doesn't REALLY matter
& I have an IDEA about the SHOW
we can get the wall/screen things they use for
MEDIA events
ORLANDO and ZEITOUN
KINDA hate each other
he won't MIND mixing it up
SO
we can have enough wall space to display
all our WORK
& if it's
CROWDED
well, what were we supposed to do
WHY did SHE
put EVERYONE in ONE show
I MOSTLY
HUNG it
ALTHOUGH
I let CYNTHIA do her OWN
TEXTLE installation*
*because I had no idea how to go about it and she wanted to anyway
ZEITOUN
gave me CRAP about it TOO
BECAUSE
we don't HAVE a TEXTILE department
THEREFORE it is NOT
LEGITIMATE
wtf
CYNTHIA was going to PARSONS
FOR textiles
& it was MY contention
that if WE SUCKED
SO BAD
ALL of US
PERHAPS
they were JUST sh*tty teachers
& if we were having to
TEACH OURSELVES
WELL, THAT shouldn't be
HELD AGAINST US*
*I'm not 💯 sure that I said exactly this to her
BUT
I took a room FULL of people
who were scared
& feeling really
BAD about
THEMSELVES and their situation
& I MADE it
GOOD
& I hadn't
FORGOTTEN, exactly
BUT KINDA
& I didn't really think of it as anything
SPECIAL**
BUT
I'm f*CKing
PROUD
of
THAT
**that's that "natural leadership ability", huh
