I guess I didn't say goodnight
I guess I just passed out
I LOVE you VERY much
I hope you are having a beautiful day 🫶
I'm feeling 😷 KINDA
run down
therapy is cancelled again for today
I have this KINDA
ROLLING spasm, like rolling black outside
BUT muscle cramps
I FEEL like THIS is too high impact for the level
of energy expenditures I've been making
THIS is EXACTLY the KIND of things
I'm trying NOT to do
to avoid burnout
SO
probably I'm not managing this as well as I hoped
I have some paintings that didn't work out, really, that I'm taking to the studio to repaint, or paint over, but I'm not doing THAT because it'll set off my back for SURE -- not doing THAT today
THOSE are in the CAR
I have some boxes
to go to goodwill
BUT
not enough to be worth a run yet
ONLY like TWO
I need to finish going through stuff
downstairs
I have a thrive market order
& a toilet paper order
which I have not completely put away
I have books
in PILES
I have STUFF scattered
MAYBE
JUST rein in the CHAOS
increase STRETCHING
try to get sh*t done without f*CKing myself up
any more than I already am
I feel
to use an expression from my childhood
RODE HARD
& put up
WET
which just SOUNDS DIRTY now
BUT
doesn't feel sexy at all
I FEEL
UNbuttressed
I SENSE a sadness with the slipped through the fingers and I have THIS
MUST say SAGE words THING
RISING UP in me
BUT
I'm not sure I'm really qualified to
SPEAK to THAT
🫶🫶🫶
