I shoulda been
ASLEEP
already
BUT
I just realized
I didn't tell you about therapy
he had texted me
the night before
WEATHER
EXPECTED
& we rescheduled for Thursday
I FEEL like I DID therapy
I FEEL like I covered
A LOT of ground
BUT
I'm not sure what any of it MEANS exactly
it does SEEM a LOT like THERAPY
PLUS
there's a guy on YouTube
I find VERY non-threatening
& it's not SO much
NEW information
as PEP talk
I've been thinking about mom STUFF not talking
and I don't really WANT to talk
ABOUT it
no rudeness intended
I THINK I have STUFF
I don't REALLY
UNDERSTAND going on
I THINK
(and I don't think it would be abnormal
if I'm right about it)
I'm not objectively
AWARE
of everything
BUT
FURTHER
I think I have BLINDSPOTS
NOT even LIKE
the perspective didn't SEE my insufferable know it all-ness
I MEAN like
I THINK
I MIGHT have PATTERNS of behavior
WHICH I do not
REGISTER
I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart 💋
I NEED some sort of
DAILY calibration
RITUAL
all this past information is
REALLY helpful, useful, cool
BUT
I get pulled AWAY from ME here NOW
I want to be able to incorporate information
WITHOUT being
HYJACKED
if I have a calibration tool
CHANGES would become
more OBVIOUS
THAT
sounds a little pkd
OR
for a minute I couldn't remember his name
BORROUGHS
SO
MAYBE
I'll REFRAME it
CENTER//core
with debrief
OR
is that interfering with the process
HARD to KNOW
what was that important thing
I DECIDE
goodnight sweetheart 🫶
👾🫚🍀❤️
