none of what I've been saying 
MAKES any SENSE 
MAYBE 
I SOUND like some kind of 
CONTROL freak
MAYBE 
I SOUND 
some kinda way I don't understand 
I FEEL like 
I have
SOMEHOW 
NOT 
COMMUNICATED
the
INCREDIBLE 
HOPE 
for MYSELF 
that I have discovered 
OR
MAYBE 
STARTED to DISCOVER 
if I made it SOUND like 
ANYTHING 
was in ANY way
WORSE
then I didn't communicate properly