to be COHERENT
BUT
don't be surprised if it doesn't make sense
I feel like
I saw myself differently
LIKE
I was me NOW analyzing ME then
SEEING things from my
NOW perspective
& THAT
was a THING
BUT
ALSO
I lost ahold of ME NOW
in me THEN
BUT
ALSO
I KINDA
got caught up in the STORY of it
LIKE
the REALITY of it all
WAS messy-er at the TIME
BUT NOW
telling myself the story in my HEAD
it became this
HEROIC struggle to become the person
I NEEDED
sh*t-- THAT sounds like a meme
I KNOW
I've spent my life trying to
PERFECT myself
I'm NOT LEARNING
THAT now
BUT
ALSO
I'm not STILL attached to these people
they came in
they went out
it didn't SEEM appropriate to
WHAT does that SAY
ABOUT me
does that make me
DETACHED
or incomplete
it's
SEEMS like
I worked out a way to
GET a LOT of
LIFE EXPERIENCES
in ALTERNATIVE ways
to the WAY that is
NORMAL
& I tend to say
YEAH
I mean, that tracks
