KINDA
some emotion
about the ridiculous need to
RECUPERATE
I don't understand
HOW I effed this up
& I'm having accompanying negative
BODY stuff
& I'm all LIKE
WHY
am I not able to
MAINTAIN
& I didn't WANT to tell you
ALL THAT
THAT'S not
SEXY
that's not
FUN
I USED to feel like
I could FIT seemlessly into
ANY situation
MORE or LESS
because I could read people
READ the room
NOW
I FEEL all this AWKWARD
because I
just don't want to do it
OR
don't feel up to
there are ALL these HAM-FISTED metaphors
I don't WANT to use them
I'm thinking about you a lot
& I'd like to
REPRESENT
THAT
BUT
I don't SEEM to be able to
& I haven't been taking
ALL my supplements
SO
I don't FEEL like
I'm co operating with myself
it's LIKE
ANY system
if I stop
FOCUSing
it falls apart
