to have this
LIKE
complete about face
trying to say I'm bad
because I have red hair
talking smack about me
to her friend
seeming not to have any
respect for my
time, or opinions, or feelings
to trying to figure out
what she needs to say
to get on my good side
or whatever
it doesn't feel
SAFE
if that makes any sense
I'm pretty sure
she hated
BOTH
her parents
I can remember
DREADING
when we would visit
it was SO TENSE and uncomfortable
any conversation just led to
SCREAMING
I didn't ever want to go
& she would
BRIBE me
TELL me we would go to the
tower of the Americas
BUT
we never did go
not once
I didn't feel close to either of her parents
BUT
I don't know if that was
because I was
too stand-offish, or if they weren't
WARM
I just know
I always thought of them
as HER parents
NOT my grandparents
I HATED san antonio
it was just a strange vibe
