NOT
what he said he was bringing
NOT
what he supposedly forgot before
BUT
pastry
&
I guess I should be
GRATEFUL
or something, but it was never about the pastry
not as SUCH
I'm trying to figure out
if everything seems different
because
I HAVE CHANGED
or if things are just objectly different
I was telling him
about my theories
I don't know what to think
I'm in a weird place
I think
& I'm trying to figure out
if this is making sense yet
I'm NOT trying to
say anything
NEGATIVE
I'm NOT
trying to argue or cause trouble
I'm NOT mad at anybody
I just feel like
the world
doesn't make much sense
&
the patterns FEEL dangerous
&
IDEAS, ya know
I LOVE you
I FEEL
LIKE
I'm confusing you and making you
WORRY
I don't want to make you worried & unhappy
I just want to focus
on this stuff
that I feel
HAPPY
& comfortable with/about
BUT
I don't think you'll find it interesting
& I feel like
I should be romantic & poetic & stuff
NOT
all nerded out
with lists of supplements I'm taking
OR
DELICIOUS new foods
I'm just SCATTERED
&
the DREAMS
I can't remember
BUT
UNSETTLING, I think
