I have this
SHADOW aspect
I'm trying to
INTEGRATE
&
BOTH
of these situations
SEEM pertinent
it's this
SELFISH thing
sister kathy
told me
I didn't care about
ANYONE but MYSELF
BECAUSE, I think
I hadn't turned in my SECRET SANTA gift
BUT
my mom hadn't taken me to get it yet
I was thirteen
I was PRETTY SURE
whether I had a GIFT to turn in or not
was not CORRELATED
to WHO I cared about
THAT didn't even
MAKE
SENSE
SO
she said it
to HURT me
it DID
HURT
it didn't make SENSE
& I have this thing
ABOUT
SELFISH
I WANT to
PUSH that AWAY
BUT
THAT isn't GOOD
there's a blindness
OR something
if you can't ALLOW yourself to be
SELFISH
that causes multiple kinds of trouble
I'm not sure if
I'm making any
SENSE
