like
I'm NOT giving you
what you want
what you
NEED
from me
MAYBE
you want me to be
a groupie
a cheerleader
a person
who is superficially complicated
but simple in the ways
that makes them a joy
AND
SUBSEQUENTLY
that I fail you miserably
just when you think
you know what's going on
I say no no
and change
I don't know
if this is right
or
sorta right
or
complete paranoia
I FEEL
pressure
to be what I think you want
& confliction
because
I'm not SURE
--actually what you want
--that what you want
is something I want to be
--that I should probably focus more
on what I want
BUT
I am almost overwhelmed
with this feeling
that I FAILED you
that you needed
a specific
SOMETHING
that I didn't understand
BUT
YOU are not like
an inspiration or something for me to write
I write because
YOU are my connection to SOMETHING
something that I HOPE
to understand about
EXISTENCE
no pressure
🤠
