I love you very much
and I have to get up earlier in the morning so I should have gone to sleep before like at least 2 hours ago but I didn't because I'm bad that way
I left the noxzema on my face like a mask
I'm not sure exactly how long I did that but I used to do it when I was younger
And I really think this stuff is awesome
and it made me wonder if maybe the reason why I didn't ever have any problems with my skin and I know I postulated this before but I guess I must have thought it was ridiculous
Was maybe that what I was using was working not that I had magic skin
Although I might have had magic skin had really good skin but I decided to operate on the assumption that perhaps what I was using back then was effective and so like I'm using the noxzema that's great
The toner that I used or sometimes I just use it as a cleanser because like I think in the morning I probably just use that was 10.0.6
And you could still buy that it's got a lot of alcohol in it so I don't know I may not be able to talk myself into it but it's not like sea breeze it's got good stuff in it too it just has a lot of alcohol as well it has half a percent of salicylic acid 2% as the highest you can get but perhaps using 1/2% on a regular basis like you know a couple of times a day is effective without being irritating I don't know and then I was like well the face mask I used was Queen Helene mint julep mask is that still available and sure enough it is and it's got sulfur in it and I have been looking for a sulfur mask but all the ones I found were expensive well I mean Queen Helene mask is cheap cheap cheapit's like $6 for a tube I can't remember how many ounces are in the tube I want to say six but it might not be that much but a 2-oz jar is like $5 so even if the tube is only 4 oz it's still an amazing value
Not that I don't like the Merle Norman mask I'm using I do I like that very much but you know mix it up
So that stuff is all available like you know 40 years later which I'd say is a testament to the fact that the shit must work because they couldn't stay in business
But then I started looking around for the moisturizer and I couldn't find that
I used one of two moisturizers The one I think I used the most often was rose milk
which was you know a common thing that you could find in the store at that point it was rose water and glycerin and it had some milk powder skim milk powder or something mixed into it too
Or the other thing that my mother would buy and I would use was milk plus six which was milk protein and six other things but that's not around anymore either there's apparently a shampoo but I guess I could look at the ingredients of the shampoo to see what's in that but I've no reason to think it would be the same things
But I think it was like milk and wheat germ oil and some vitamins I don't know
Now I did find a rose milk body lotion and it might be the same formula but I don't know I don't want to start putting that on my face
Not that I'm adverse to mineral oil as such
But I just couldn't make myself
But I thought you know if glycerin is the most important ingredient
Yu-be is a Japanese glycerin cream that I had a sample of one time and I was very impressed with and it has camphor in it which is another ingredient and I'm kind of trying to get on the yu-be although it's not very expensive it's a lot more expensive than the Japanese version which is the exact same ingredient
It's called something like yushima-A
So I think I'm going to get my hands on some of that because like for the American market version it's $25 for 2 oz which you know it's not bad I guess but for the Japanese version it's $21 for 6 oz and it's probably cheaper if you're in Japan
The noxzema is really good
I highly recommend it
I kind of feel like I've been cheated somehow by all the expensive cleansers
And I mean you go through the noxzema faster or I do anyway but then I'm also using it on my body not just on my face and the grocery store the pump bottle is like $3 and something but I mean at the rate I'm going through it I think I have less than about less than half a bottle and I haven't had it very long so when you take into account the speed at which I'm going through it maybe it's not quite as good a value as some other things but I'm just super impressed
Last year about this time I bought a jar of 5% retinol from truth treatment because it was like a Black Friday sale or something but it was still super expensive and I still have a little bit left because I was using it like once a week and then sometimes not and whatever and now I've been using it more frequently and I really really like it and I'd like to buy another jar of it but I just I can't so and I couldn't really decide whether I thought it was helping that much or not so I'm going to try a retinol from beauty pie which I'm still getting the membership for is like $10 a month and I haven't been spending that money because you know when I'm looking at what money I have to spend and what I want to spend it on I have ever wanted to spend it on the beauty pie stuff but I didn't really want to get rid of it because they have some items that I like like that plantastic and they come out with new stuff all the time so it rolls over every month so I had quite a bit of headlight 800 and something dollars worth of credit to spend although that doesn't mean I had money it just means that it I could buy whatever I wanted but it still cost money but like that plantastic according to them if you bought that on the market it would be $60 which is probably right because you know the way the markup and everything is on those kind of items and what they do is they go to labs in Switzerland and Japan and Italy and whatever and the labs that people who are going to make their makeup lines go to and so basically if you're going to make a makeup line you go to one of those labs and you say hey here are the things I want to do and they have technologies and they just kind of maybe tweak them for you or maybe just give them to you exactly the way they are so that plantastic serum that I like is theoretically a $60 serum but it costs like $8 well I got a retinol that's a " super " retinol booster that's supposed to have like 3% encapsulated retinol with lactic acid or something so that's not as strong as the retinol that I've been using and the one I've been using was formulated by a formulating chemist pharmacist who used to have his own pharmacy that he just all he did was make formulations for people who had you know skin problems or burns or things and he studied with the guy who invented blistex so I mean you know he's pretty good and I suspect that this will not be anywhere near as good but I really don't need it to be as good I really just needed to be good enough you know
So the super retinol booster 3% encapsulated is $17 and whether it works or whether it doesn't work we know it will have a very pleasant texture it'll be pleasant to use because it comes from one of those labs that makes prestige skin care so whereas it might not be as active or effective actually has something that you'd get from the ordinary that ordinary grant active retinoid it does not have a pleasant texture it is not pleasant to use and I don't know whether it does anything either
I know I had a night serum retinol from Merle Norman one time and it was an encapsulated retinol with I think it was lactic acid and it worked pretty good I enjoyed it very much I don't know if it kept my face clear because I don't think at that point I was having issues with that but it was about 55 or $60 and it was only like a month's worth and it's too much the expensive stuff that I've been using you know was more than that but you know it's lasted a year so but it's just it's too much to lay out and especially since I don't know if it's a really doing that much and of course once I stop using it I'll probably notice whether or not it's doing that much and then you know I don't know we'll figure something else out later but the beauty pie stuff is on the way
And it's it's funny because now I'm like yeah I don't need to wash my hair I don't need to brush my hair I don't need to be clean I don't need to be wearing nice clothes well I like to wear nice clothes if I go out but if I'm around the house I could wear the same shirt for like 6 weeks but God damn it I need my face to be clear That's the line I'm drawing in the sand I don't want to be all broken out on my face and it just seems kind of crazy now like why do I give a s*** but I do and it's not like anybody's even really seeing my face because I got the mask all the time but you know I don't know it's like clear skin or bust
Anyway I love you very much sweetheart
Sleep well
