I guess you'd call it
something
PSYCHOLOGICAL
I think
& I needed to pee
I was going to walk up the stairs
to go to the bathroom
& SUDDENLY
there were
SO MANY
people
coming DOWN the stairs
& my therapist -- or whatever was going on
SAID -- DON'T GO to the bathroom
JUST PEE
into the
PILLOW
now, that might strike you as a strange directive
it certainly seems STRANGE to me now
& I think it seemed strange to me in the dream
BUT
she was quite serious
AS THOUGH
it was an important exercise for my recovery
SO
I DID it -- peed into the pillow --
SITTING on the FLOOR
AND
the pee MOSTLY didn't seem to ABSORB
it pooled out into the floor
which ALSO
was a non-absorptive surface
AND
the beautiful GOLDEN liquid
RAN EVERYWHERE
I crawled around
wiping it up
WITH the PILLOW
which now seemed to absorb just fine
COLOR in DREAMS
always SEEMS important to me
I wasn't embarrassed
I wasn't angry
I wasn't frustrated
I was just
FOCUSED
on the task at hand
AFTERWARDS
I stood up
I wasn't FAT anymore
I have no idea what that means
