Monday, March 23, 2026

i slept at least another eight hours

I had some long long dreams 

I was sleeping in the dirt
HAPPILY
I THOUGHT 
in the front yard
of a building I used to live in
THEN
some guy
came over and took a spot too close to me
couldn't SEE him -- couldn't assess him
didn't FEEL SAFE anymore
got up & walked to the door keys in hand
looking behind me
somewhat scared
DOOR didn't LOOK right 
I wasn't where I thought I was
I went to find someplace
SAFE

I ended up in an old diner
not like fancy FIXED UP
just old but funky
& I found myself in an odd corner
I need to get SOMEWHERE 
I think I was thinking of another place I had lived
a BUS came by
OH I thought 
I didn't know a bus came by here
I wonder HOW LONG until the next one
BUT 

in the way SOMETIMES if you are playing 
say city skylines 2, using anarchy because the
actual game works KINDA sh*TTYL and you want stuff to line up and fit

the bus phased right into the building 
& as it came by
I could just STEP ONTO the INSIDE of the BUS

I went through these beautiful 
LUSH areas that SEEMED 
TOO THICK with foilage to even pass through 
BUT 
I don't remember getting off the bus

I was in this WILD MCM media room
I was in an enormous leather chair
& there were TWO television sets
one on top of the other
LIKE 
thouse double ovens you sometimes saw
in fancy kitchens on cooking shows

& me and SOMEONE else 
we're going OVER and ANALYZING 
SOMETHING 
I can't quite remember 

HISTORICAL 
CULTURAL 
something 

THEN
I was talking to a couple of people 
I knew in the dream 
in some kind of 
GROUP 
but it also seemed like a game
& I kept trying to get information from them
& they were only answering me in these
VAGUE non-informational
SHORT answers 
& I'm LIKE 
WTF
are you not looking anything up 
NO, they said
we have to leave the stream for that

I'm LIKE 
YEAH I KNOW 
I'm leaving the stream every few minutes 
& it's a pain to get back in the flow

NOT JUST THAT
you don't GAIN COINS if you LEAVE the STREAM

I don't even know what you're talking about 
I SAY 
WHAT do COINS 
DO for you
that makes them
IMPORTANT ENOUGH 
to be worth
doing a crappy job at what we are
SUPPOSED to be DOING 

AND THEN
I'm in a house 
& I have something set up
in the idk
EXHAUST SYSTEM 
MAYBE 
it's hooked up to the
STOVE
for SURE 

BUT 
I THINK 
it runs through the HVAC as well
& SUDDENLY I look in this cabinet
& there is this LIKE 
WALL
of what looks like broken bits of
SALTINE CRACKERS 
being sucked up from SOMEWHERE 

I keep WANTING to take a picture of it 
because it is going UP
in a WAY 
that SEEMS 
CONTRARY to GRAVITY 

& there is SO MUCH of it
LIKE 
HOW could the SYSTEM 
EVEN FUNCTION
with all this 
CRAP
gumming up the 
WORKS

& then I woke up
with kd lang singing three days in my HEAD 


I stayed in bed a long time 
THINKING about the DREAMS 
& I may have even gone back in
BUT 

I FEEL like 
I FIGURED SOMETHING OUT 
I don't KNOW if it is ME
or the system 
or BOTH 

& my head does 
HURT

but I feel 
BETTER about EVERYTHING somehow 
it's a LOT of SLEEP though