BUT
something has shifted
AGAIN
haven't cracked the blind spot puzzle
YET
I feel more solid than I often do
I'm re-living some of that stuff with my mom
& I'm sort of metabolizing it
is how it feels to me
the things t*ump does that I
RECOGNIZE
& I feel like maybe that's where we came in on the CRAZY
leading into the pandemic
I hadn't been doing well for some time already
& THEN everything else got
end of the world-ish
with the pressers every day
& it's plague times
& THEN
I just went to the
TOXIC CORE
& then for a while
a little cross triggering
& idk if I'm making sense
I had a lot of FEELS
which I guess was good
BUT
it wasn't all living in the moment
I went to the grocery store
SO
three days in a row
leaving the house
engaging in extroverted sensing
proximity to humans
STILL
I don't think THAT
REALLY
captures it
I think I need some sleep
& DREAMS are important
goodnight sweetheart
I LOVE you VERY much
