I haven't seen one
since I was a kid
what does a woodpecker mean
as an animal guide
I read stuff but it seems unclear
perhaps persistence or resilience
which doesn't feel like the same thing
or strength
SO
generally hang in there baby vibes
BUT
also the drumming quality
it's got
hey this here is a sign
VIBES
BUT
I had completely forgotten about it
& the reading at meditation
was exactly the thing I'm trying to do
do different things
BREAK
your patterns
it forces you to engage with the present moment
I feel like I've got some blind spots
I feel like I'm sensing
THAT
I'm not SEEING something
that if I saw it
EVERYTHING
would be
BETTER
I feel like
I've been doing this slide
between some aspects of reality
& the picture of the world I'm currently juggling
is hard to navigate
the perspectives
it's hard to explain but from my perspective
they don't seem to ever just
LINE UP
& THAT SOUNDS
CRAZY
it's NOT that DRAMATIC
but it hovers or something
but I'm starting to feel like it's converging
the STUFF is a sign of
SOME sort of reality
BYPASSING
I can't
EXPLAIN
when I was in the room in austin
I had been SO freaked out
SO beyond STRESSED
from all the mom stuff that when I was in the room with the whole
VISUAL REST
it made me realize that that stuff
WORKS
I gotta fix my visual clutter
& I made a plan
TODAY
using all the strategies I've learned so far
I'm excited to see
HOW
it's gonna work
I've got
let the sunshine in
face it with a grin
open up your
HEART and let the sunshine in
playing in my HEAD
there's a lot going on in there
& I am not sure
HOW MUCH
of it I'm not
SEEING
I need to sleep
I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart
goodnight
