STRANGE
& I'm still FEELING emotions
BUT
ALSO
I'm still doing SOME shadow integration
I'm noticing my BODY de-escalating
& MOSTLY
I'm trying to FEEL -- I keep forgetting the WORD
SOVEREIGNTY
& it's a little bit jarring
because I just WAS
tapping my chest
LIKE
along my collar bone
TELLING
myself -- you're SAFE now
BUT NOW
I'm NEEDING to FEEL this NEW THING that I'm not AT ALL even SURE I understand
& there are different ways to do it, probably
& MAYBE
I DID understand
BUT
from a different framework
& NOW
it seems like something completely different
I'm serious about it
& I heard something on a cchannelledd*
message
which I'm now using
as an abbreviation for the whole process
what the message said -- the universe is lining it all up for you and it needs you to
DECIDE FASTER
BUT
not like
HURRY
LIKE
ENGAGE with your DESIRES
OR
what do you think you want
what do you like
what would you
ENJOY
maybe I'm not conveying this well
there's this state I'm trying to get to
where the desire to eat delicious food
& the desire to have a fit body
have a conversation
reach an agreement
meet on some kind of rational ground
& the f*CKed UP scripts can all be burned
I am being kind to myself
BUT
I'm ALSO
EXPECTING -- LEVEL UP
*these words make me mad
