I am in a weird place
& I'm not sure
WHY
or how long I've been here
I feel a strong desire to apologize for being
TEDIOUS
BUT
that SEEMS contrary
to what I'm trying to achieve
SO
MAYBE
that's a good illustration of one of my issues
I can SEE how
the experience of ME
in my FULL confusing me-ness
MIGHT be
LIKE
a bit MUCH
& I want to acknowledge
that I KNOW that
I listened to my aunt joan telling me all the problems with edith
for years
I listened and I did
WHATEVER
it is that I DO
in my personal belief
that's not really
FAIR to a
KID
BUT
it comes naturally to me, I guess
SO
maybe I started it, ya know
it was f*cking her up pretty good
& I TOLD her
she should JUST stop
& she explained to me that I was a monster
& I guess I thought about that too
BUT
I'm not saying
I'm sorry for being the way I am
& I'm not forcing you to
deal with me
BUT
I'm a little over how long everything takes
I'm commiserating
I had to stop
LOOK
at what I've gone through
be a little BIT impressed
BUT
I'm all over the place
& last night
I thought I felt you quantum entangled
& then I had this whole
FILM portal thing
like the beatles
thing
& I thought I had a THING
but then I second guessed my mind meld
& freaked out
& THAT is what THAT was ABOUT
AND
this voice in my HEAD
KEEPS yelling
DANDELION
