Thursday, April 9, 2026

check in april 8th

I'm unable to articulate 
what's happening in my HEAD 
I had a bunch of dreams I don't remember 
BUT 
ACTIVE 
working through things 
I'm continuing to go through stuff 
BUT 
not as quickly as I'd like 

I feel like something about 
narcissism & capitalism 
is trying to write itself into a new 1984 something 
in my HEAD 

& I DO remember a piece of dream
you and I
we're standing on a lawn
in front of a large shrubbery 
I feel like we were
DISCUSSING 
something 
& that there was a chance that it was possibly 
IMMANENT 
that we would fling ourselves 
into each other's arms
& then I woke up 
OR
possibly someone came up to ask a question 
& then I woke up
BUT 
there was some kind of interruption

I LOVE you VERY MUCH 
I'm gonna try to sleep now 
goodnight sweetheart