I've been forgetting
& then I FEEL
the ANXIETY
I would naturally be like
NO, let me back up
there is sometimes a problem with doing the things & forgetting the self care
BUT
when I have forgotten
I become AWARE of it & take the STUFF
I was thinking about it
I have USED the
CRUTCHES
& NOW
I'm not EVEN really snacking
I haven't moved the needle on the picking
I'm watching the qi gong videos
I'm not YET doing the
stretches
BUT
I'm impressing myself on the STUFF front
I'm trying to do a variety of things
to get at the CORE
a SPACE that
FEELS that that SERENE
HOTEL vibe
BUT
it's ALSO
KINDA
it's a test of the can you interact with the real world well enough to set of something you want WHY have you NEVER really
got THIS right
NOT
I have all these THINGS
that MUST be CONFIGURED
RATHER
HOW
DO I
WANT
THIS
to BE
ALSO
abraham hicks I THINK maybe
CRIBBED off
neville goddard
& videos of decorators rearranging furniture
short attention span
only two chapters in on shaolin
NOW
I've got peace train stuck in my HEAD
SOUNDS like
cat stevens did he do peace train
YES
I think it would be good for me to
SLEEP
I'm probably going to tibetan buddhism tomorrow
unless it's raining
street flooding
is a possibility
SO
if it's raining
& truthfully
I want to
FINISH
the
ROOM
BUT
they're doing a teaching
I LOVE you VERY much sweetheart
goodnight
