Saturday, April 18, 2026

better check in, maybe but the skincare team says they're killing it

SO
my question now is 
HOW 
do I deal with the 
STUFF 
without going off the deep end again

I MEAN 
I feel more solidly 
ME
& I EXPECT 
THAT
will help

BUT 
that part of my mind that always 
LIKE 
tries (sp?) to CONNECT the special interests

is all like 
psst --- it's not an empathy engine

stories based on mythic fairytale 
mission from g*d
CORRUPTION 
in the world
NARCISSISM 
religion 

weaving all the bits together 

this may or may not be clear enough to make sense 
it seems like a possible 
SOMETHING 

MAYBE 
maybe it's just me solving puzzles in my HEAD 

BUT 
I was contemplating 
HOW 
in case I could 

& I watched this video about language trends
& HOW it's CHANGING all the time 

ENGLISH was supposed to be dying 
it's the fastest growing language 
BECAUSE 
people all over the world want to watch 
english language videos

FRENCH 
second fastest language 
AFRICA 

& then ALSO in africa 
NIGERIAN pidgin
is growing 
FAST
because in nigeria they speak like five hundred languages 
SO
they're using nigerian pidgin
the way swahili is used regionally
& french --- in different regions 

BUT 
it's LIKE the MOST amazing 
SLANG 
& the rhythm
& the melodiousness

JARA