i have gotten very mixed signals from the universe today

i feel kinda disoriented

and

i was thinking last night

i want to change my name

no one had called me by my name

in longer than i can remember

and

it sounds foreign to me

not my name anymore

then

the kid calls me that

and it sounds even more foreign

my head hurts so bad

i almost can't stand it

i think i'm gonna sleep for a while

i love you very much

you feel farther away than i like

and i feel

well, i did feel moody

but

less so now than earlier

but, still

somewhat alienated from myself

goodnight sweetheart

i love you very much