nite chat: 6:18

well
now i've stayed up very late
and
i fell asleep in the chair
and then i still stayed up
another three hours
there isn't much chance that i'm getting up at 4:45

but
i've had all kinds of fun
i think
the perfect job for me
would be
and i'm pretty sure i've said this before
or something like it

i would like to find period pieces for movies and tv
like set decoration
and accessories
i found
so much stuff

i don't actually think those glasses look bad on me
they're a little too big
unless i'm a hipster

and whatever
i have those other glasses coming
and they may be too big as well
but they are so beautiful
and
i found someone liquidating
they were just selling frames
for so amazingly cheap
because they aren't curated at all
you have to filter through all the pages

but i found two more frames
so cheap as to make the other ones
which i thought were pretty cheap

i'm dancing around the moon

look at these

these should be the same size about
as my current glasses
like 2 mm more
and these are like
the glasses of my soul

i am a tortoise shell glasses girl
at least half of the glasses that i have had
since i was an adult were tortoise shell
the ones i have now
actually maybe not since i was an adult
whatever
lots

i do tend toward flashy glasses
and these are not
but
ya know what
these i can return

and
the other ones
are flashy
they are kinda cat eye too
but i don't really know how big they are
because i can't see the notations

when i got those frames at sam's years ago
i thought i liked em
but when i put them on now
they seem too small
they make me feel like i look like a weird german or something
and they don't feel good
i don't think it makes much sense to spend a shit ton of money
getting high index progressives
in glasses that don't excite me

i do have
somewhere
a pair of glasses
that i rarely wore
from back in the early 2000s
i think
they were neostyle brand
and i'm not kidding you
they are blue
with an orange inside
i didn't wear them because the sides arms
seemed flimsy
and i was working hard
i was afraid they'd fall off and get broken
but
they're not super feminine
they are that squared of rectangle type shape
somewhere between the current ones and the previous ones
which
i don't know if you even remember
i loved those glasses
i was so proud
i went to the discount frames warehouse
and found something funky and cool
on sale for seventy seven bucks

and i know when i met you i had
really round with top corner points
that didn't quite manage to be cat's eyes
on the orangeish scale tortoise glasses

but then the next time you saw me
i had the blue ones i didn't wear
and the pale pink pearlescent ones
i thought they looked pretty
and more feminine
but
i don't think you liked them

and before the tortoise
i had these great taxi frames
they were kinda steampunk looking
and were a bright blue anodized metal
but they had those nose pads
and
they just kept breaking

and that takes me back to 97
and i just don't remember what glasses i wore then

i just can't remember

anyway
it was amazingly fun
i don't know what i'll end up with
i just prefer to have two glasses-s
both for variety
and as backup
i can't see very well
also

since i've had the bifocals
i feel like i don't see anything right
and i end up taking off my glasses for anything
up close
like now
but
i can't really see that
it's just better than the bifocals
so
i strain my eyes
for sure i do
so
i thought i might try to get a cheaper pair
that isn't bifocal
it's just up close

i really just wanna see
like i used to see

where everything
was sharp and clear
from right in front of my face
to the leaves on the trees
the street signs
every blade of grass
cranked up to shocking focus
by my kick ass ability to say
better like this

anyway
i'm not sure when i'm getting up
but i'm not staying up
i'm very tired

i love you very much indeed sweetheart
sleep well
i'll see you for coffee tomorrow