Okay so I've been laying in the bed having positive thoughts for almost an hour

and since I didn't go to sleep until afternoon actually that was a reasonable amount of sleep not excessive

But the dreams I had did not seem to be related to operations splashdown

And they weren't very positive or happy either so I was like ah crap

But then I started with how comfortable I was and how grateful I was and all that sort of things

And before I went to bed

I was like Apollo 11

They landed on the moon

Did they have a splashdown I think they did

So I looked it up and there was this video of the Apollo 11 the splashdown and the frogman doing the removal from the capsule

And I took notes and I wrote down a bunch of stuff

And I'll probably make one of my official lists in my official list book about all that

But I was thinking about all that and I was like my initial thoughts were to go with one of the like dates times whatever to make a time goal

But I woke up and I still didn't know what operation splashdown was supposed to mean

So I asked

And my brain started coming up with all these answers mostly related to those time goals

But then I kind of checked in and those did not feel right

So I just started with the grateful and happy things again how much I love you

And then biggest day it said

Look look going to the moon was the hard part

And going to the moon is the metaphor for the rocket ship and the least resistance

And you already believe

You have the book You can write the book you are the book you have all that

The only part you have to do now is the extraction process

The splashdown

That's not the hard part

It's important and it's got a bunch of steps and it's kind of seems difficult because all the things you have to do to extract the astronauts or in an ocean that's moving up and down and everything is moving up and down

So it's not easy

But it's not rocket science

And I thought about how I like to write

The writing that's fun

Because I want to tell a story that means something

But I want to tell it to you

I still don't really care that much about getting my story out to the world

I want to tell it to you

So

I need you to be my frogman

I don't want you to push me

But I would like you to tell me what you want to hear or give me some kind of prompt

And then I can run with that

And I'm not sure exactly what that looks like

You're the muse so I guess you get to figure that out

And I'm not making you responsible for it

I'm just asking

But that feels like such enormous progress on a number of fronts

I just couldn't tell you how grateful

Just full of love