morning chat: 6:11

i forgot
i can't believe i forgot this

two things really

first thing
my mom
she used to go to these real estate seminars
and one time she couldn't go
i can't remember why
so
she made me go instead
i was like twelve or maybe as old as
fourteen
i don't think i was fourteen
but
i wasn't older than twelve

anyway
i went
and i wasn't very impressed
i listened to the guy
come up with some ideas
that i think maybe worked sometimes
like
trade a house you have
for another house you want
things like that

so
i listened
and when my mother asked me
so how do i make a million in real estate
i answered her
you teach seminars on how to make a million in real estate

because
i in no way believed
that this guy
made a million in real estate
and
i didn't believe his stories

also
she subscribed to a self-help
and motivational tape club
with all these
big containers
like books
but
full of tapes

and
i listened to them all the time
i liked them a lot


second thing

i listened to self hypnosis tapes
all the time
for all kinds of things
like that same age range
twelve to fourteen or fifteen
but
maybe not fifteen
come to think of it
by fifteen
i don't think i was doing it anymore