6:19

i fell asleep in the chair again
and
also i've been doing stuff
but
i can't really remember what
watching rachael and don
looking for books
which i did not buy
i'm going to sleep on it
but these are the ones i decided on
for the buy two books by black authors

this

and

this

but
in the back of my mind
like low level
i've been thinking about
cafeterias
and specifically this conceptual thing

cafeterias were very different
some were like fancy palaces
and some were like deco delights
but
at some point
they became not that
now
if you find a cafeteria
the line is like a fast food kind of line
but it wasn't like that
the fancy palace kind
had a like processional hallway
that was sort of like a back stage
except for the cut away sections of the wall
where you caught glimpses of the diners
with a sort of building of the excitement
or
breathlesss voyeurism

the deco ones had a distinctly walled of line area
with paining on the wall
that was wide enough to be comfortable
like for chatting before the food service area

when you got to the dining area
it was nicely walled off
so that
once they'd wisked your tray away
it was just like a club setting maybe
i've never been in a club
so idk really
but
maybe what i imagine a club would be like

i went round and round
which was better
and what would you serve
and
what would you call it

comfort-a-teria
caf-eater-emporium
caf-emporium
the emporium
still circling, haven't landed

but then too
i was picturing dim sum carts
instead of ice tea carts

maybe something else special
maybe themes for the carts

and then i looked up cafeteria on youtube
hoping to find examples
of my cafeterias
but, instead
i find something closer to what i'm thinking about

and
i'm not sure what's happening with the cafeteria
i assume i'm writing about it somehow
i am literally falling asleep

i love you very much sweetheart
did they have cafeterias where you grew up
sleep well

i'll see you
i'm not sure what time
for coffee