I'm NOT saying
KEEPING me alive
wasn't a job
BUT
he TOLD me
one time
we would walk around the mall
go in all the stores
you WANTED something
I'd say
we can't afford it or whatever
you'd say ok everything
was fine
these boys
they throw a fit
BUT
then he did HAVE to TELL me
HOW if you kill yourself
you have to live
in the mental state
you were when you died
for all of eternity
so BETTER stick around
it could ALWAYS get BETTER
seems to me
ROTHKO found
a loop hole
MAYBE -- but this is too obscure & probably too dark too
