THINK that I am having a problem
which may not have occurred to you
a big part of WHY
I wanted to go on the trip
that I now am not going on until
who knows when
was to try
and get a handle on
WHAT I'm doing
& that is because I need
to be doing something
&
if I am now doing
a bunch of travelling
I need more money to do THAT
SO LIKE
I wasn't supposed to do that
BUT
NOW
I needed to have done that
& I FEEL like
I've lost some quality of myself
in this whole process
BUT
I'm not looking to run away
I'm just looking at
HOW
LIKE not together
my life is
which I didn't notice so much
BEFORE
