I'm avoiding my brother
because I don't want
to explain my WHOLE LIFE to him
I FEEL like
he doesn't KNOW me
& THAT doesn't
SO much
HURT
as JUST within the
CONTEXT of
ALREADY
BUSY
FIGURING out
HOW my operating system WORKS
BUT
I FEEL like
my mom is a problem for me
I NEED her
to NOT affect me
I WANT to get AWAY from her
BUT
there are all these reasons why THAT is problematical
& BESIDES
I'm trying to FIX myself
& if she still bothers me
MAYBE I'm NOT fixed
BUT
I FEEL like
MAINTAINING is IMPORTANT
SO
I'm tempted to say
ROUTINE
BUT
that doesn't really work
what WORKS is
FOCUS on
SOMETHING
BUT
then only that gets done
& THAT doesn't
WORK
& SO
WHAT do I NEED
to DO
it's a LOT easier to ask the universe for
a place to LUNCH
than to figure out what to ask
on any RANDOM day
BUT
I MIGHT just have to
EXPERIMENT
SMALLER CHUNKS
WORKS BETTER
I FEEL like I have MADE
SO much progress
& I want to
MAINTAIN that progress
THAT is
I THINK
what I WANT to TRY to EXPLAIN
I'm sorry this is probably not too interesting
I just want to make the MOST
of the therapy
