different glasses
I UNPACKED bags
ARRANGED things in different ways
I repacked the bags
DIFFERENTLY
I went to meetings
HOLD your bag
THIS WAY
stand on one foot
in the lake
I took off my
PAIN BODY'S clothes
tried WRAPPING it
tighter
looser
BINDINGS
I walked through a myriad of
PRACTITIONERS with
SYSTEMS
I had to use the bathroom
& I FOUND one
at the SAME time as
another woman
who gestured me to go FIRST
BUT
I wanted HER to go first
because I had to sh*t
BUT
she insisted
& she was talking to me through the door
& I wasn't sure
HOW
I was even gonna be able to
UNDER THOSE
circumstances
BUT
there was NO TOILET PAPER
SO
it wasn't happening anyway
& when I told her there was none
she was GONE before I could
get back out of there
I was getting
TIRED
& KINDA
hopeless
WHAT
was I SUPPOSED to do
with this
VERY ROBUST
PAIN BODY
AND THEN
I CAME to a PLACE
& I'm NOT SURE
HOW
to DESCRIBE the place
it was a property with buildings and fences
the predominant color was
LIKE
a light straw color
it was FLOODED
to my chest height
& I THOUGHT
it was going to be
VERY COLD
WALKING into high water
isn't generally a good idea
& I wasn't TOO SURE
I wanted to
BUT
it was totally
CLEAR
PURE
SO
I WALKED in
it FELT good
& ESPECIALLY
the way I could
FEEL
the RESISTANCE
of my OWN
WEIGHT
there was
SOMETHING
GOOD
RIGHT
about THAT
THAT was the RIGHT
DIRECTION
BUT
THEN
I woke up
& I'm not sure what it
MEANS
BUT
it's IMPORTANT
