also
I don't understand
all the fourth fifth stuff
in a concrete way
the relations between the bits
I don't know it at all
but
I could sing the Rudolph thing
without the meter
I'm not sure I could do it with the meter
I think
I can just hear things
but
I don't really understand them
also
when they were talking about
the piano not really being tuned "right"
that made me happy
because
my whole life
there have been moments like that
and I'm like
that note seems wrong
weird?