and i had pancakes

hey
i don't know what happened to today
i stayed up late last night
fell asleep in the chair
and then slept late today
i got up
i'm not sure what happened then

i know i had coffee
and i checked my email
oh
and i had an email from soko glam
i'm not sure if i'd been looking at skin care before that
but i think i had

i'm almost out of the subQ
because i just had what was left over from before
the last time i freaked out, probably
it was a while ago
i had used up the subQ eyes
but i still had the face
i think i like the face better
and i had ordered the secret key starting treatment eye
because

well
i like secret key
they're cheap, but they're good
but
the way i decided on that one
instead of ordering packets of the one i've used before
which i do like--  history of whoo
was a long process of hunting

i had bought a moisturizer back before i even met you
it was 2002 and i was having no
absolutely no problems with wrinkles
but
i would periodically go and buy
i had more money then
really expensive skin care
i bought a jar of la mer
i bought some natura bisse
it was a weird self-nuture thing where i had to go to neiman's

anyway
i was remembering this moisturizer that i bought
and i took it with me to keystone colorado for a leadership conference
and i was trying to remember what it was called
it was pretty new at that point
it was the oil free version
and
it's claim to fame was it had EGF in it
now
it is dry dry dry in colorado
and my skin was just sucking this $200 light moisturizer up
yeah it was super expensive
but
after a couple days of that
my skin was like glass smooth
so
now that i'm all wrinkly
i was thinking about that stuff
and
of course i can't afford a $200 moisturizer
but
it's not new technology anymore
so i looked up EGF on neiman's website and got the name ReVive, it's called
and it's oligopeptide-1
so then i knew secret key had some EGF lines
i started lookin around
i found that one
and the packaging looks just like the SK-II eye cream
that i bought on line
from an asian site on a big sale
for my birthday
like five years ago or something
it was too expensive
but i did like it
but
i ended up not really using it
and i have nostalgia about it because i had to throw it out
anyway
i like this one better, except the smell
it smells like soap
anyway

all this is fun for me
not the wrinkles
but the research and the experimentation
and the memory lane
whatever, it might be boring, but i love it

so, anyway
i was on the niod website
trying to decide if i should buy more subQ
or if i could make it last a bit longer
if there was anything else i could add to get free shipping
because that serum is $22 and you need $30 to get free shipping
but the shipping is $6.49 so you might as well buy something else
but the other things i want are the Fractionated Eye Contour $68
or the Voicemail Mask $45 or the Superoxide Dismutase Saccharide Mist $50
i've already got a backup of The Ordinary granactive retinoid 2% emulsion $9.80
which i really love
and
that is what i'm shooting for in skin care
really affordable stuff i can slather on
not stuff i can't afford that then i'm afraid to use up
ya know what i mean

so
also
i was looking for cheap DMAE
i stopped using that a long time ago
although i thought it worked great
i had something i bought at whole foods with that in
but i read an article about how it caused "cell death" in lab conditions
now
i'm not even sure exactly what they mean by that, actually
but i had a picture in my head of my face falling off
and i decided that i didn't need to use it anymore
but
i just found out
that the whole dr. perricone line is based on DMAE
so i looked it up
and the available information is
shit yeah it's super firming
and
it's just that one study more than 15 years ago that had a problem with it
lavender oil causes "cell death" too
and
that's like the hydrogen peroxide situation
my whole body would be dead tissue
if lavender oil was bad

so i started searching
but i couldn't find anything that i'm completely happy about
i found this one last night https://www.amazon.com/Andalou-Naturals-Hyaluronic-Wrinkles-Soften/dp/B0091OCBJ4/ref=sr_1_10_a_it?ie=UTF8&qid=1535596442&sr=8-10&keywords=dmae%2Bserum&th=1
and i found this one https://www.amazon.com/Anti-Wrinkle-Anti-Aging-Kate-Ryan-Skincare/dp/B00BRMN23C/ref=sr_1_14_a_it?ie=UTF8&qid=1535596512&sr=8-14&keywords=dmae+serum
and this one https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B018VBKVPS/ref=s9_dcacsd_dcoop_bw_c_x_4_w?th=1
today

but
i'm not really enthusiastic about any of that

and then
i got the email from soko glam
which is a curated korean skin care website
i ordered missha time revolution first treatment moist edition
on a black friday special
i'm not crazy about it
so i'm using it up slowly by mixing it into dry masks, seriously

i mostly ignore their emails
but
this email had time stop collagen ampule
which caught my attention
and when i read about it
i was entranced
because

mushrooms

i have been looking for a mushroom serum
for years and years and years
origins has one, but i don't like it-- and it's pricey for what it is
the saem had a chaga one that i jumped through all kinda hoops to get
but then just didn't really like
i swear there used to be a reishi one from yves rocher
but when i went back to get it it was gone
so here is a serum
that stops time
and builds collagen
and it's 76.52% mushroom
and
there's more?!
yes, yes there is
the bottle appears to have a rose gold thing goin on
my gran gran had a ring that was rose gold
that i saw when i was a kid
and i have loved it ever since
like way way before it was popular

https://sokoglam.com/products/the-plant-base-time-stop-collagen-ampoule

it's got good reviews too

so then
idk why
but i had to look at everything else they had on the website
probably because i know they have a shipping minimum
but
i ended up just getting that
and paying $6.49 for shipping
so painful the shipping

and
if i had realized it was less than an ounce
i probably wouldn't have
but
i just caught that

and that is how i spent my day