ok
i'm goin to bed
i hope you're ok
i'm now kinda worried that i've alienated you
did you know that cats need to eat
or their organs start to shut down
like really fast
anyway
the force feeding is going well
he still won't eat the new food on his own
but
he's warming up to it
or else he's decided that he's just outsourcing eating
but
an ounce or two a day
is not enough
the idea is to feed him enough that his organs don't shut down
but not enough to fill him up
so he will hopefully eventually eat
but
it takes him three days of not eating sometimes
when it's a new case of the only food he'll eat
i don't understand how there can be enough difference
between batches for him to tell the difference
but
fancy feast chicken and liver is all he ever wants
buzz wanted variety
but this cat is ocd
he wants everything the same all the time
which is not the best with me
but he loves me
but
god damn
this little fucker had better start eating on his own soon
but he super loves me now
usually he sleeps on me until i fall asleep
and then he goes to the foot of the bed
but last night i got up to pee
[maybe it was the night before, not sure]
at 5am
when i had gone to bed at 2am
and he was still sleeping on me

i really do not want him to waste away like harvey did
but he is sixteen fucking pounds
so
there's some wiggle room
he was seven pounds when i got him
but he's had that tom cat widening of the bones
and he's muscular
but
he's a little fat too
he could easily lose four pounds
and he might be ok to go down to ten
but
i mean
not rapidly

i want the kitty to get well

goodnight sweetheart
i love you